All Things Bright and Beautiful

I am so blue right now. It's just because of what I have done last Monday night. I deserved this right? I messed up! But urghhh.. Let me patch things out. To my ever dearest best friend, I appeal to you.. I am SORRY!!! (teary-eyed) I knew it was my fault. One proof that I'm not a perfect person. I can do mistakes, I can hurt you at my actions and words. Please bear with me with these.. I am not comfortable knowing that you are in pained because of my selfless actions. You are the last person I think last night and the first person I remember when I woke in the morning. You are mad at me and I am mad at myself too for hurting you.. SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY bessie..

My heart squeezed whenever I read your sad text messages. I felt your disappointments. :( Accepting my sorry isn't enough really.. I want your disappointment to be gone. But it is impossible right now. That's why I am writing this. Hopefully, it can mend even a little of your sadness. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.. Please don't hate me.. :( I am willing to do whatever you want just to erase your disappointments that night.. (begging-emoticon)